Unwanted Sorrys

you're the one thing that surely makes me feel whole, even when i'm broken;

you know my worries and fears, and they don't scare you off;

you reach out to hold me when i don't know i want you,

and you make everything better.

but what happens when you are the problem,

when your words tell two stories that don't coincide,

and i don't know which to believe?

i'm scared of making the wrong choice,

but i have no idea what is right and wrong,

so how am i to choose?

i don't want to lose you, but i don't want to keep you

if you keep relying on the sorrys i shouldn't need 

to remedy the mistakes you know not to make.

so shall we jump down the rabbit hole once more, 

or is this the part where the story ends?

a big part of me wants to experience the jump again,

just not the horrid landing.

show me the path you see without your words,

because at this point, i need some action of reassurance.